Anniversary

I made it to the zoo!
Yup, I wasn’t sure if it would pan out but it did and I had a wonderful few hours. I felt like a child, so excited, and I actually felt sick from excitement haha 🙂

I even had my face painted, my partner did too and it caused much amusement from children and adults as we walked around the zoo. I stopped caring many many years ago about what others thought and it didn’t faze me one jot, I smiled and did tiger grrrs at some children which they laughed at. Here’s the pic of me in all my painted glory

I also had two bunches of roses from my partner, white and pink 🙂
I love roses, I know it’s not exactly the rarest of flowers but I think them very beautiful and strangely relaxing. I shall take two of them out of the vase and dry them, I’ve done this with most flowers I’ve had, they create good memories for me.

Today has been a very happy one. Not just because of the outing but because of celebrating our year together. It may not seem long but during that year life changed beyond anything imaginable. So much has happened, bad as well as good, that I will forever look back and be astounded that not only did we get through it but we became stronger and closer because of it.
🙂

Chronic pain strikes again

I have no idea what happened to today’s blog, it only uploaded the first part of it! Grrrr

My chronic pain is back with avengence, but I’m hoping it’s a short lived thing. I can only take oramorph and paracetamol in between new pain meds and even though my pain meds have been tripled in dose I’m still in massive pain. Fingers crossed it’ll ease off.

I had a plumber come today, my toilet wasn’t flushing properly which was yucky. I took the top off the cistern and saw I needed a new ball cock (tee hee) in the past I would’ve fixed it myself but I no longer have the energy or ability to pop to the shop for supplies. The plumber was nice enough and fixed it within minutes, so my toilet now flushes better than ever. Relief 🙂

It’s my partner and I 1 year anniversary on Monday. We are planning a trip to the zoo which I am really excited about! I am hoping that I can go, it’ll be the first major outing for me in neatly 2 years. I’ll dose myself up with painkillers and bring my aides and other bits to make the day easier in my body.
I want to roar at the lions oooh oooh at the monkeys and go into the bat sanctuary and have them fly around me. I am going to do my best to get there!

It is my longest proper relationship and although it’s been difficult at times we’ve got through it and are stronger than ever. I became really unwell within two months of us being together which would impact on any relationship. I was willing to let him go, I said I wouldn’t hold it against him if he did and I didn’t want to put my stuff onto him. He refused and has been there every step of the way. There is a six year age difference between us, he’s younger but it’s not an issue at all as we are very mentally connected and he is very wise. He tells me every day he loves me, how beautiful I am and I know they’re not just words. He is the guy in movies you watch that are loving, supportive, kind, always there and you never believe that kind of man exists. But he does, and I love him more than I could describe, I appreciate him and he is my equal in every way. I am an incredibly lucky lady.

I aim to make some bracelets later on if my pain decreases, I have so many beads, silver accessories and chains that my partner bought I could make around 50 with them. I also have neckelace items which I am to make, I love silver! It’s favourite colour next to black. I will post pictures if I do make them and would appreciate honest opinions 🙂

Chronic pain strikes again

My pain is back with a vengeance.
My whole body feels as though I’ve run a 10k marathon, with the flu and being shot at along the way.

The pain meds are obviously not working. The problem is I am out of codeine as I couldn’t take it with my new pain drugs so I didn’t do a new prescription. I will ask my Father to put one in today.
I am really disappointed as I thought this kind of pain was in the past. I’m angry too, angry at my body doing this again. Angry that things were really improving and now it’s kicked in again.