Constantly waiting

No news about my results yet, oh I really don’t enjoy the constant waiting for results I have endured during the last year and a half.
I appreciate that I am just one of hundreds waiting daily, but results marked urgent obviously don’t mean the definition of the actual word. I can guarantee that I am told my results are ‘lost’ again, giving them three weeks to find them..

I spent most of my day in bed yesterday, I woke with tremendous back pain and couldn’t ease it no matter what I tried. My back had been niggling for a few days and decided to stop teasing and hit me in one fell swoop. This pain has become more and more of a problem in the last six months, it stops me sitting up for more than ten minutes at a time before it spreads upwards into my upper back, shoulder blades and ribs. Then downwards into my hips, knees and legs.
I posted a picture on Twitter showing how a body looks if you have severe fibro, and I can believe it. It’s easy to say you’re in pain, but to get the full picture is difficult for a lot of people to understand. Pictures like I posted show just half of the body and damage it causes daily.

I would be really interested to see an inside photo of my body and what it looks like. The MRI brain and spine scan I’m due to have, well I won’t get to see it but I would really like to. I feel that it’s my body, I have a right to see inside. I will request to look at the scans but I doubt they’ll let me, it can’t hurt to try though!

For now I am going to take some painkillers and morphine, the pain brought on by my back is getting a lil too much. I try never to take morphine as not only does it cause addiction but after awhile your body becomes used to it and requires more and more to help with pain. Today though, I may as well be taking smarties than pain meds so to the morphine I go..!