I woke with a jolt this morning, one minute I was dreaming about being on holiday with my family the next I was wide awake and confused as I was still in a dream state. I laid there for a few minutes coming to my senses and for getting I had woken with a jolt went to get out of bed. I then realised why I had woken so ubruptly, I had massive back ache that shot a jolt of pain through me as soon as I went to sit up. I was half in bed and half out of it, waiting for the pain to subside as I wondered if I should get up or lay back down again. Well, my bladder won that one and I decided to move as quickly as possible to minimise the pulling pain, I did so and nearly fell over due to the intensity of the lightning like bolt that shot through me. Added to that I also woke with totally stiff hands that wouldn’t bend and I won’t go into detail on how my bathroom visit was, but just say that it took much longer than usual and I could of won a prize for the contortion act I did while on the toilet.
Months of no major symptoms of Endometriosis and now suddenly it’s back with avengence. The back pain is a big part of it, as is the pain in my pelvis that is currently causing me to limp. I had a very bad infection in my pelvis which was brought on by treatment and because I didn’t realise I had an infection until I had a massive bleed one day it went undeteacted for three weeks. Slowly spreading until the treatment was far worse than the cure. My pelvis has never been the same since, and I used to suffer really badly with pain, limping, bleeding backache until my ME and Fibro conditions took over and pushed it in the background. Now not only am I having terrible back and pelvis pain but I am bleeding constantly, sorry for that if squimish guys! It’s as though now my leg locking has eased up the Endometriosis has decided to rear it’s head, not gently but straight to the worst symptoms. My body is well and truly messed up inside, I do dread to think how I will be in 30 years time if it’s as bad as it is now. I guess only time will tell, literally!
Today begins the start of a long weekend spent with my partner. He works such long hours in the week, and as we don’t live together week days can only be a few hours at a time spent together. Which is still great, but this weekend is totally ours, neither of us have to do anything, no commitments etc so it’ll be lovely to have time together until Tuesday. It will be our year anniversary in a couple of weeks time, which has gone incredibly quickly. It is the longest proper relationship I have had, and by far the best one too. So much has happened in that year, and seeing as I became extremely unwell two months into it we seemed to have managed to get through it and any other things that have cropped up. We wont be doing anything major to mark the day, just spend what we can of it together. Which is all that really matters, fancy restuarants, gifts, are o;k but I have never been materialistic. To me spending time with him is far more important than any gift, money can’t buy time, togetherness nor love and that is what our day and celebration of the year will be about.
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Fibro and M.E 